Meet Charles...

Okay so the Military Bear experience went flop so my daughter and I took a trip to Build a Bear and I picked out something that I could love and be happy with. Meet Charles I picked him out from Build a Bear yesterday in memory of my Dad. I love him and what I love even more is that my Dad's voice is inside of him along with two hearts, his and mine. All I have to do is push his hand and he repeats a message my dad left on my cell phone that I kept. I will never forget him saying, "Bring me a street hot dog sandwich", LOL. I love you daddy!

Left with memories....

 

My daddy and me. I thank God for this picture that was taken by my husband. It sits on the radiator in front of my living room windows. When I start feeling sad I quickly glance over at this picture and it makes me smile. I loved my dad immensely! After his passing 7 months ago I was left with a void in my heart. I have tried to keep myself busy over the months and tried not to think to hard. I have had dreams, thoughts, and relived moments of the past spent with my him. He was a gift from God. He loved me and that right there is a priceless thing because so many cant say they were loved by their dads or had his presence in their lives. So many rolling stones, many mothers are left raising their children alone. Too many sons and daughters being raised without the love and guidance of an earthly father. I am so grateful that I had my Dad in my life from birth until he could no longer be here with me. He never left. Yes, I hurt that he had to suffer health wise but I take joy in knowing he lived. He had family and friends that loved him. I find myself being drawn to so many things that remind me of him and keep him close to me in spirit.

 

I will always have a special place in my heart for Jazz because he loved Jazz. I enjoy cherry vanilla ice cream now more because he did, lol. Every since that bird made a three day appearance at my window the week of Father's Day I now love collectible birds. Military stuff I collect to keep alive the memory of him being in the Air Force. I have flags and patriotic (Americana) stuff in my home's décor now. I am patiently waiting on a military bear I ordered to be delivered. He will wear the heart with my dad on it on a chain around his neck when I am not wearing it. Nothing fully helps you get over the pain of losing someone you have loved your whole life. God helps you to cope and continue with life. He will slowly but surely fill that void enough so you can continue to breathe and function in their absence. He will also enable you retain and pull up those precious memories that will make you smile and laugh again. Writing is therapy for me. I love to write about my Dad every now and then. I will never stop loving him, thinking about him, or talking about him. He was a lovingly man that any daughter would be proud of. Thank you God for him.

 

Missing you

Hi Daddy we are on vacation in Wildwood. Today was the first day I walked down to the beach. As I walked in the shallow water of the Atlantic Ocean I gazed out into the distance thinking about you. I was remembering when you were here, the last moments I saw your face, I was even trying to pull up memories of when I was a child and we were together. I looked through the water and around the beach looking for a sign from you that you might be near. At first nothing, then I saw  man with a Dad tee shirt on and as we walked back from the beach to our hotel room I saw a rock in the sand and decided to pick it up. Mind you I have past a few rocks during our past 5 days here in Wildwood but for some reason I decided to pick this one up. I was touched that the rock appeared to be in the shape of a heart. Was this for me from you daddy? Well either way I will take it. There is not a day that goes by that I don't miss you or think about you. I love you. Oh and did you hear me singing to Jesus earlier praying you were near him and that he would tell you that I love you and that I was grateful for you? I hope some way some how you know. Going to get something to eat after I watch the news Dad. Ttyl, I love you.

Daddy was a snappy dresser

He took pride in his looks.  He was always matching from head to toe. I have some of his dress hats. I am not letting them go.

God Bless America!

Found some old cards the grandkids gave Dad

We were visiting at moms day before yesterday and I came across these in a photo Album. Memories.